[Note; I hesitated posting this as I know it is read by at least a couple of people from ‘real life’ and didn’t want them to get the wrong idea but ultimately I needed to get it written down and think it will be good for me to look back on.]
In a few days I will reach Quarter of a Century.
While age is only a number, over the past few weeks I have been having all kinds of thoughts enter my head. Thoughts that are important yet not really worth the effort stressing over, some irrational some completely rational, the kind of thoughts that you need to banish from your mind and get on with life and remember what will be will be.
Some of these thoughts include;
Will he be able to cope with living with me
Will I be able to cope living with him
Will I find a job I like
Will I find a job I don’t have to work crazy hours
Will I make friends
Will I miss home too much
Will things work out
Will I make mistakes and not learn from them
Will I be able to have children one day
Will I end up marrying someone who thinks I’m the most important person in the world
Will I be able to actually do the job I’m employed for up there.
Will I be able to cope with my family and friends being in another town
Will I be able to keep up my exercise
Will I get up there and find out we don’t have anything in common
Will I get up there and find out we have too much in common
Will I get a good reference from the current job
Will I get the job/pay I deserve due to my age
Will I be able to get back in to running
Will I be able to play netball
Will we have lots of arguments
Will I be unemployed for ages
Will I travel much in the future
Will I settle for anything less than what I deserve
Will I turn into a stress head living in a big city
Will he stay if I put on weight
Will I be able to sort out my eating properly
Will I keep scrapbooking
Will I be able to sell all my crap I don’t need
Life was a lot easier before thoughts like these entered your mind that’s for sure.
Welcome to the quarter century club I guess.
What kind of things did you think of when you reached an age milestone?
Better out than in! I think writing these down and thinking them through will help assure you that you AREN’T CRAZY. All of these thoughts are completely normal and sometimes, you just have to trust your gut and live through them. The whatif’s will always be there, no matter what!
xx