I swear I’m on the verge of a quarter life crisis and have been for a couple of years now.
Life can be a cruel bitch sometimes, throwing things at you until one day you reach breaking point and snap. While I believe life is what you make it and you can choose your own destiny sometimes it is a lot easier to go on life’s ride, let it knock you around a little and then pick yourself back up, learn from it and move on.
Whilst I’m still not over that edge yet I do feel dangerously close, I think exercising is my outlet at the moment as it is something I can have control over.
I saw my mum this morning and told her I was over it and I’ve had enough, what I was talking about I’m not 100% sure, I think it was mostly study. Although in the back of my mind I know it’s the way life has been going in general. I know where I want it to go but having this study in the way is stopping me from jumping that hurdle.
I like change, I get bored living in the same house after about a year generally. That is why we don’t spend many weekends at home, I’d rather be out exploring, I can’t sit still.
I think I am getting a bit resentful of the fact that I have gone straight from school into full time work and almost full time study on top of that and I haven’t been able to get out and do as many things as I would have liked.
I need change, what that means is another story. I’m not entirely sure yet, I think I need a change of scenery but on the other hand need to suck it up and stick it out until the end of October to get through my workshops and exam otherwise all this study over the past 7.5years would have been pretty wasted.
Le Sigh! I think I needed to get that off my chest even if I’m none the wiser as to what I need to do. I’m hoping a week in Rarotonga at the start of August will help me sort my head out.
How do you get your head clear and make sure life is heading in the direction you want?
Aww, I think I know how you feel. When I was studying everything I wanted to say/do started with, “Well, when I finish my degree I’ll get to do that…”
Which is super frustrating. I finished uni at the age of 25 and felt super stifled by it (although I loved my course and was so passionate about completing it).
I promise there’s light at the end of the tunnel! Getting away during break time and shaking up what parts of your life you can control helps.
Creativity is key 🙂
Thanks hun, it’s comforting to know that other people have got through it and know the light at the end of the tunnel is worth it!
My boyfriend just finished exactly what you’re doing – CA exams. He wanted to give up but he just powered through and now we’re living in London, working and (soon to be) travelling around Europe! All I can say is KEEP GOING and make a plan for the end of exams. That’s how got Matt through it!
Good Luck 🙂
So jealous! In all seriousness though thank you! I needed to hear that! Now I just need to make plans about what I can do afterwards, I only wish I’d been saving this whole darn time!
I think I am still in the depths of my QLC, but realising it was happening made all the difference. So did quitting my job and taking a year out of reality – but hey, that’s not always the answer.
I totally understand the CA exams too, I’ve been the CA widow and it was definitely the hardest year ever, for both of us! I think with CA you literally just have to put your blinkers on and take one workshop at a time, don’t stick your head up and even THINK about the future, the what ifs, the ‘I’m missing out’ things – just GET. THROUGH. IT. MONTH. BY. MONTH. It’s depressing yes, but you will depress yourself more if you start thinking about life outside of CA!
Once its done, its like the clouds lift, your life becomes YOUR LIFE all over again. The opportunities it opens are huge, and you can use them to craft the way you want your future to look.
Don’t worry, so many of us feel exactly the same, day in and day out. We aren’t alone – and all we can do is muddle through it!
xx
Thanks so much hun, it’s always good to know that others are going through or have been through the same stuff!
As for PCE2, 2/3 of the way through after that workshop on the weekend, with only two left to go I am starting to see the light at the end of the tunnel and now I know some others doing it as well it’s definately helping a lot.